I don’t like to write about work here, but today was an overwhelming day. I feel emotionally and intellectually drained. Class, reading group, class, meeting, class. To top this, I am freaked out about comprehensive exams in May. This is exactly six months from now, I can’t possible prepare. I will walk into the exam room and will probably totally draw a blank on all things comparative and methodological. I will have to walk out of there, pack, and find something that I am actually good at.

I can’t even recognize myself. I used to be an easy-going, laid-back person who takes life as it comes, good and bad. These days, I am nervous wreck. I worry about TA-ing. I worry about my research project and what’s happening with my future career. I even worry about the avian flu (seriously!).

I need some serious love in my life. I miss my mom. Instead, I will be cuddling with my religion books tonight because I need to write a proposal. Now that’s warm and fuzzy.

P.S. This has got to be the most extraordinary research institute. Maybe they can help in finding Mr.Prince-on-white-horse. Speaking of which, I read “He is Just Not That Into You” for a second time. It says men should do all the asking out, wining and dining, calling and proposing. I can’t decide if this philosophy is empowering or, quite the opposite, limiting. What do you think?